I think I will live. And maybe I’ll study and
become a doctor to save people who seem to think life is actually worth living.
I will marry a young and handsome man and we will be the perfect couple with a
perfect life and a perfect house with a dog and two perfect little children
that do nothing but run around and play in a perfect garden. I will lie to my
husband and children. I will never tell them that I don’t really wish to live
and that my biggest wish is to die already. I think I will try to teach myself
how to love them, the least I can do is try.
I will lie.
It’s actually 5.34 now. Time goes by quickly.
I have school today but I will tell Mother that
I feel a little sick and that it’s too cold outside. She’ll say she thinks it
will be a lot better if I stay home today.
I will actually just sit here and plan my
life. I will look outside my window and see how the world turns without me. I
will stay here in this red apartment building and see how the winter cold
freezes everything out there.
I will try to live.
THE END
