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I hope you have a nice monday xxx


sometimes things aren't perfect and she cries

I don't know why I've got this new habit going on that really bothers me. I tend to envy other people's lifes and simply hate mine. I like their looks better, their friends, their families and the way they seem to be having a much better life than me. 16 year old kids who have the perfect lives, it's hard not to feel jealous really.
I want to go back, I want to go back to just a few months ago, when I felt happy and didn't envy anyone. I want to go back to the times where I was so happy I didn't even notice it. I need to be held by someone I love again. I need to let go and properly have fun with friends like I used to. I need to not care about anything. I need to be like those kids who's life I envy right now.

But being someone else isn't right. Perfection's meant to be awful, there are always meant to be flaws.
It just feels as if there's only flaws in my life right now.

Saturday, when the hair comes down all the girls in town gonna dress the place

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A little get together for old times sake's at J's house. Met new people but also people I hadn't seen in a while. Over all, I had a lovely lovely time.

My German friend was here over the weekend, quite intoxicated, we took ourselves home last night and watched Mean Girls. We then ate amazing scrambled eggs for breakfast.

I hope you had an amazing weekend xxx

super nintendo sega genesis when i was dead broke man i couldn't picture this

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Tables, evil and lighters
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Graffiti on my way to the gym 
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Typical dirty boots
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More addictions and lattes with lovely Andris
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Pizza with old classmates
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Dad made american pancakes and green tea
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Addictions on a lamp
Kind of what my week looked like. School and some interesting things with different people. Oh yes, I finally finished my first book this year. Up next:  Sputnik Sweetheart by Murakami.

ciao lovely x


c.r.e.a.m. get the money dolla dolla bill ya'll

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Today's been good. Yoga with dad at 6.45 in the morning, school and (as usual) some wonderful new buys from Erikshjälpen. I was amazed by the sight of this bag and got hold of it as soon as I stepped into the store. It seems as if the previous owner didn't use it too often, it actually seems new. I was happy to get it for 40krs.

I'll hopefully finish The year the Gypsies came tonight and finally cross-off a book from my list.
Ciao xoxo


just give me a second darling to clear my head

I can't physically stop listening to these songs. I hope you listen to them and love them as much as I do.

I'm off to bed early. The year the gypsies came and my cozy bed.


when the light is out and the words have gone let me be the one to try it on

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I finally figured out my new year's resolution which is really just a copy of what someone else did, but it just a really good idea. I have to read 50 books by the 31st of December 2012.

Sorry if i've been off this little page for a few days, i guess i just don't feel like it sometimes, just like i don't feel like snow. It's been snowing, but i absolutely hate it. I feel like it's far too late for snow and it just makes going outside so goddamned annoying.

Throughout this week: I've gone to the library to borrow books (some children's book, yes fuck you i love roald dalh) and i've had some strange mixtures for breakfast.
I've eaten pizza far too much. I've drank chai at Ariman's with a lovely guy and I've played super mario bros for far too long.

It's a saturday night and i reallllly need to get going with my 50 books. I'm still on my first one: "The year the gypsies came".

holla at ya later bro xoxoxo


home is wherever im with you

I have nothing to post right now. Like, absolutely nothing.
I guess I could tell you about my day.
But that would be irrelevant and completely pointless.
I could tell you how much I miss those times.
But that would be completely pointless too.
I could tell you how much I want to wear shorts and lay in the grass.
But that would be completely pointless too.
Because it's cold and dark.
Grey, cloudy and depressing.
In the end, the only thing I'm doing is complaining.

Which ,funnily enough, is pointless too.


come on skinny love

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The shirt I'm wearing is from H&M men. It was actually my brother's Christmas present but it was too small so I kept it.

Finished school at 9.30 today. Came home, slept till two and then made myself some soup and read for a couple of hours. Fell asleep again and now I'm off to watch 50/50.
Only one lesson tomorrow as well. Life is getting better. yes yes yes yes.

I hope you had a good start to the third week of the year.


it was written in pencil

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"There is actually absolutely nothing to do about it. All you can do is look forward and try to ignore the pain, even if it hurts every second that goes by. Even if it won't let you eat or sleep."

Wearing a second-hand knitted sweater. Bought it for 10krs two summers ago at a flea-market.



last night

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Got this jacket for 95sek at Erikshjälpen a few days ago. It's definitely not warm enough for late friday nights out (as I noticed yesterday) but I'd say it's worth it being cold. Long-sleeved shirt from Topshop, hoodie from JC, gifted hat and black jeans from Vero Moda.

Ooops gotta run, dad's waiting for us outside to go and play tennis.
Have a lovely saturday xx



This guy is far too amazing for me to be able to describe him with words.
His lovely voice and guitar are probably the only two things that have properly made me smile today.



Rich $$$$$$$$

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First day back in school after the holiday.

I really don't know if I can actually stand it for another year and a half.
This place is filled with rich kids who think they know everything about everything and everyone. They think they've seen everything cause their mommys and daddys take them on holidays all around the world.

I want to know people who will actually blow me away with their amazing life experiences and stories. I want to hear how tough they've had it. How much pain they've been through, but how they still manage to stand strong.
Are you one of them?

adeu x



Woke up smiling and was happy and cheerful.
Going to bed tired of this shit country and wanting to move back to incredible Spain.
Swedes, don't get offended, it's me, not you. 



photo bomb from 30/12/11 to 8/01/12

Image Hosted by ImageShack.usThe dorms were my oldest brother lives.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usSome dinosaur on my brother's fridge.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usAnd yes, I played around with the magnet-words...Image Hosted by ImageShack.usDrank some tasty green tea in a very dirty tea-cup.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usNew-year's eve, Viktor and me. This was around the time my night was nice and enjoyable. An hour or so later, I was having a horrible time, I felt lonely, empty, alone and had far too much to drink.Image Hosted by ImageShack.us Hmm... I was at dad's and ate hamburgers without an appetite.
 Image Hosted by ImageShack.usPlayed scrabble with Arianna and ate tacos. Also spent about 2 hours or so trying to pass a stupid level on Super Mario Bros. It was a lovely evening.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usMom took me to Ikea. I bought Ice-cream candles so my room smells delicious.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usMom bought me a couple of things to make cupcakes with, so I tried making cupcakes for the first time. They came out surprisingly good and my friends finished them all when they were here last night.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usWatched hockey live for the first time today.Image Hosted by ImageShack.usAnd made cupcakes again.

So, after looking at all these pictures, I guess I could say I've been doing alright. I still feel alone and emptiness still hurts my chest, but now I don't think about it as often as I used to. It's been 14 days.