sängen

One of the things she used to enjoy the most was sleeping with him in his double bed. Kissing softly every once in a while and talking quietly about irrelevant things. And finally falling asleep.

His lips were always soft and he had a unique sent she was crazy about. It wasn't cologne or perfume, it was nothing she could actually describe. Sleeping with him gave her the opportunity to enjoy that strange but lovely smell.

The room they slept in was always quite cold, as it was quite big, with two large windows and no proper heating installed. She always complained to him about being cold, so he would always let her lay down first and then cover her with at least four or five extra blankets. They were all of different sizes, colors and textures.

He would then hop into bed and she would immediately cuddle up against him, trying to warm up his naked chest with her cold hands. For the first couple of minutes, they both always shivered and waited till their bodies got warm. For the rest of the night, it was always perfectly warm under the covers.


She now has a double bed, but she can't share it with him any longer.
He is now probably looking for someone else to share his bed with.

/s

let it out let it out let it all out

Ego picture for the sake of updating this goddamed blog.
I can't find the inspiration to do anything or to write anything or to read anything.....
Ajfksvvdkavdkdba it drives me crazy.
I will find time to write something tonight. I don't like disappointing you lovely readers.
xxxx

quick

I don't really know what to write about the past few days.
I've been very very tired.
I've been reading things I shouldn't be reading.
I've had a horrible headache for two days straight.
I've bitten my nails.
I haven't gone to the gym.

I still haven't written down my dreams.

Ah I'm such a mess.

tiresome paper dreams, paper dreams honey

Off to the library to study for a test that I will most likely fail.
At least it's sunny outside and I will hopefully see a good old friend tonight.

If you live in sweden, get the fuck off the computer and go get some sun. Take a jacket though, its kinda windy....

Bye gorgeous xxxxxxx

sometimes i still need you

Things I'd like to say to people:

You:
I'm sorry if I always seem to be saying no. I'm sorry if it seems as if I'm not making an effort.
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say to you. I haven't seen you in a while.
I don't know if it's too soon, I don't want to screw anything up. I'd like to see you more often.

You:
I feel so different about you all of a sudden. You've kept so much from me and you told me things so casually. I was so surprised and so scared at the same time and I don't think you noticed at all. I still can't believe the things you told me, it just doesn't make sense in my head.
I wish you never told me. I wish I didn't know because it's too awful.

The two of you:
I wish you still loved each other. I wish we all still lived under the same roof. I wish we could all have breakfast together and sit there and talk and laugh. I miss it so much.
I would give everything just to see you two together again.
This doesn't feel right and I don't think it'll ever will.

You:
I saw you through my window today.
Your hair is longer.
"Aren't you cold?"- I thought to myself.

You:
You are so smart, so friendly, so amazingly beautiful, so sincere. I'm actually quite jealous of you, but don't worry, it's a good type of jealous. It's kind of like "Damn, I really just wish I was a bit more like you". I really hope you know how truly talented you are.

/s

im stuck to you just like glue, i love you i love you i swear i do

My life right now is so irrelevant that I can't really think of anything to share with you other than stupid tumblr shit. I actually quite hate tumblr.......... stupid hoes that reblog hipster shit and get their pictures rebloged by 1000+ people. Only a very small amount of people on tumblr create their own stuff and post it. The rest of us just reblog random shit cause we think we're cool. Tumblr kills creativity. Thank god I have you lovely blogspot <3

Sorry about the rant. 

Good night x

lets grow old together and die at the same time

Skipped my first class cause I have a massive lab report to write.
Still not even 10% done. Fantastic me! And its due tonight... Oh well.

I keep dreaming very strange things, but I still haven't gotten around to buying a notepad to write my dreams down (Will do that today though).
I keep losing clothes (Will try to find them though).
I keep thinking about you (Will at some point stop though).
I keep telling myself "I'll start tomorrow" (Will actually start tomorrow though).


Wolalalalalala, see you later xxxx

sunday morning

This week has been okay.
I don't care if I didn't do much, I managed to forget school completely and I absolutely loved it.
But today's sunday and there's school tomorrow.
I have a shit load to do, but I'm sitting here, wondering if I will actually do it.
Whatever, I'll have something nice for breakfast and figure out where to start first.

Have a lovely sunday.

thoughts

I want to quit high-school
I want to live in my own apartment
I hate people who speak too loud
I need a cigarette box
I want to wear shorts and have tanned legs
I can't wait for flee-market season
I hate school
I wish I could stay home alone every friday/saturday/sunday with my own thoughts
I hate all my stupid and pointless classes
I want to drink coffee and eat toast while I listen to music on a gramophone
I hate people my age
I like the sun
I very commonly want to hold hands with strangers
I love smiling at bus-drivers and saying good morning
I hate how I don't drink enough tea
I want to become a university student
I wish I could speak Hungerian
I sometimes feel that my mind is not the right one for my body
I wonder if humans actually have souls
I need some cigarettes
I wish my dad wasn't so stressed out all the times
I want to live in Budapest
I think humans are probably the dumbest living organisms out there
I can't stand the smell of deodorant and sweat
I should study more
I hate studying
I act stupid sometimes for no apparent reason
I should get a better personality
I think my mother is very strange sometimes
I want stability in my life
I should stop complaining
I sometimes have the need to destroy things
I want to go to Madrid, eat "bocatas" and walk around El Prado for hours and hours
I would love to see my Grandmother and my favorite aunt again
I dislike things in people quite easily
I should drink more wine
I wish I could wake up next to someone I love again
I don't like my face
I want to hold my baby-step-brother in my arms
I want to sit outside and draw weird shit
I need to kiss a new boy
I should start reading again
I once sat on a bus filled with people and wondered why exactly I was even alive
I have to spend less money on food
I can't stop dreaming about them
I wish I lived 20 years or so ago
I hope I die before my family does
I could not live without my parents or brothers being part of my everyday life
I have been dreaming very vividly the past few nights
I love writing down things about strangers I see around
I like boys who wear hats
I miss holding hands with someone
I want to talk to intelligent adults about intelligent and amusing things
I get called pretty too often by older men
I miss my parents being together
I hate living in this country sometimes
I wish I had a normal life
I miss having a best friend
I feel alone at times
I want to walk around in the streets of Campinas again
I hate the Internet and how I could be a much better person if it didn't exist
I like mozzarella
I very much dislike people who don't know when to stop talking
I should be more creative
I need money
I want to travel to Stockholm and sit on a train for 6 hours
I am scared of growing old and becoming a boring human being
I love my brothers so amazingly much
I hate far too many people that I've never properly met before
I should learn Portuguese again
I should go to bed now

Good night x

superlative conspiracy

I've gotten quite a couple of new things from both mom and dad these past few days. A lot of WeSC from dad, which I'm quite happy about. I'm not usually a brand-person, but I think I'm slowly falling for WeSC's clothing+design. Everything's always so comfy and of very very good quality, although not usually the type of clothes I wear.... But watevs.

Sorry if I've been blogging terribly, I guess there isn't too much to write about and such. Also I've been focusing a little bit more on my tumblr. Check it out here

bye homies