I don't know why I've got this new habit going on that really bothers me. I tend to envy other people's lifes and simply hate mine. I like their looks better, their friends, their families and the way they seem to be having a much better life than me. 16 year old kids who have the perfect lives, it's hard not to feel jealous really.
I want to go back, I want to go back to just a few months ago, when I felt happy and didn't envy anyone. I want to go back to the times where I was so happy I didn't even notice it. I need to be held by someone I love again. I need to let go and properly have fun with friends like I used to. I need to not care about anything. I need to be like those kids who's life I envy right now.
But being someone else isn't right. Perfection's meant to be awful, there are always meant to be flaws.
It just feels as if there's only flaws in my life right now.
i do not quite like you. i admit it. but your post speaks to me. and to a hundred other teens out there. believe me. it sucks now. but it will look up. cliche thing to say? perhaps. but its the truth.
ReplyDeletesucks to know you don't like me. one always has the impression that one isn't hated/disliked, but that's just an illusion, isn't it? thanks though, you give me hope.
Deletesometimes they are not as happy as they look either
ReplyDeletereally though? it's just hard to believe sometimes... their lifes look all glittery, fun, exciting and perfect from where i'm standing.
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