last night

Got this jacket for 95sek at Erikshjälpen a few days ago. It's definitely not warm enough for late friday nights out (as I noticed yesterday) but I'd say it's worth it being cold. Long-sleeved shirt from Topshop, hoodie from JC, gifted hat and black jeans from Vero Moda.

Ooops gotta run, dad's waiting for us outside to go and play tennis.
Have a lovely saturday xx

ben

This guy is far too amazing for me to be able to describe him with words.
His lovely voice and guitar are probably the only two things that have properly made me smile today.

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Rich $$$$$$$$

First day back in school after the holiday.

I really don't know if I can actually stand it for another year and a half.
This place is filled with rich kids who think they know everything about everything and everyone. They think they've seen everything cause their mommys and daddys take them on holidays all around the world.

I want to know people who will actually blow me away with their amazing life experiences and stories. I want to hear how tough they've had it. How much pain they've been through, but how they still manage to stand strong.
Are you one of them?

adeu x

Desperation

Woke up smiling and was happy and cheerful.
Going to bed tired of this shit country and wanting to move back to incredible Spain.
Swedes, don't get offended, it's me, not you. 


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photo bomb from 30/12/11 to 8/01/12

The dorms were my oldest brother lives.Some dinosaur on my brother's fridge.And yes, I played around with the magnet-words...Drank some tasty green tea in a very dirty tea-cup.New-year's eve, Viktor and me. This was around the time my night was nice and enjoyable. An hour or so later, I was having a horrible time, I felt lonely, empty, alone and had far too much to drink. Hmm... I was at dad's and ate hamburgers without an appetite.
 Played scrabble with Arianna and ate tacos. Also spent about 2 hours or so trying to pass a stupid level on Super Mario Bros. It was a lovely evening.Mom took me to Ikea. I bought Ice-cream candles so my room smells delicious.Mom bought me a couple of things to make cupcakes with, so I tried making cupcakes for the first time. They came out surprisingly good and my friends finished them all when they were here last night.Watched hockey live for the first time today.And made cupcakes again.

So, after looking at all these pictures, I guess I could say I've been doing alright. I still feel alone and emptiness still hurts my chest, but now I don't think about it as often as I used to. It's been 14 days.

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Camisas

Guy-shirts are probably a big part of my wardrobe. They are also very cheap if bought second-hand and great to wear with just a pair of black jeans. The first three, I got at Erikshjälpen and the last two at a flee-market a couple of summers ago. I really don't know what I'd wear most days if shirts like these didn't exists.




Anyways, I'm dead-tired right now since mom dragged me around IKEA the whole day, so I'm off to bed (yes, it's a friday night, whatever) to read some shitty book for school.

see you later x

mistakes mistakes

Sorry for the terrible blogging, but don't give up on me. I haven't been able to produce any pictures/writing that are/is actually worth looking at/reading. Maybe later tonight, or tomorrow morning. Yeah?

adeu xx

Why don’t you do right, like some other men do?

Just got these babes in the mail for about 240 swedish coins. WESC Bongo they call 'em.

Anyways, Fred spent the night and I had a lovely time. We talked, I cried, she hugged me while I poured my heart out and told me I had all the time in the world to get over it. She's so wonderful. So lovely.

Now I'm waiting for daddy to come and pick me up to have lunch at his place.
Have a good day
xx

crushed

I don't know how well the pictures show how I'm feeling. To say the least, emptiness fills my chest and actually physically hurts me. No matter how hard I try, it stays there.

On the very first day of the year, I spent about 2 hours talking to my mother about how I'm feeling right now. You would have thought it helped, but saying things out-loud made it all much clearer in my head. And all those thoughts keep me awake at night, steal my appetite and make me feel so helpless.

If this is how my year will be, I guess all I can do is wait. Wait and see. Wait and forget.
2012 is a leap year. From today, 2nd of January, I have 364 days to go.

MMXII

Hmmmm, I really can't be bothered to try and show you all how interesting and marvelous and great my life is (notice the sarcasm), so all you'll get today is a "happy new year".

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