amanda

just started work
and ive got a lot of school to get done.

ahhhhhh no time

come back in a couple of weeks if you want to see something new on here

love love xx

until the poets run out of rhyme

i am absolutely useless
focus sofia, focus
get yourself togetherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

warmth

It was very warm outside that day. Her skin felt sticky with sweat and her mouth was dry. There were people everywhere, children and adults buying ice-cream, enjoying the sun and even looking for spots to sit in the shade. It must have been at least 26 degrees, but there was no wind at all, which made it all seem even hotter.

She wanted to buy a drink but only had a couple of coins in her little leather purse. Her throat hurt from the lack of water and she felt a little dizzy. "If only I were by the beach or a nice swimming pool", Anna thought to herself.

It was probably a bit dangerous to go on without drinking anything, she had stupidly decided to wear jeans that morning and the dizzy feeling got worse by the second. With no money to buy anything she decided to find a bathroom and drink some water from the tap. She finally found one in a fast-food restaurant, after having walked around in the heat for a good twenty minutes.

When she got to there, as usual, there was a long queue outside the women's bathroom. First in line was a little girl and her mother. The little girl looked extremely tired and her nose had turned red from the sun. The mother was fat and sweaty, but held onto the little girls hand and lovingly looked at her daughter's tired face and kissed her little red nose.

There was a group of 3 older girls, probably around fourteen or so, dressed in very short shorts and revealing summer tops. They laughed and talked publicly about their lives but Anna ignored them and concentrated on not passing out as the dizziness got even worse. There were some other women there as well, but Anna ignored their presence too.

Then she met her.

until the sun no longer shines

yours until the rivers all run dry

Free icecream is always nice.
And so is his company.
And so is this weird app that really amuses me.
And so is mom's food.
And so is "Baby I'm Yours" by arctic monkeys.
And so is alex turners voice.
And so is this messy bed.
And so is this new haircut.

Now I'm off to finish watching bright star.

/s 

until the stars fall from the sky

i dont think i have anything to write about.

probably cause im relatively happy.
and i usually keep my happy thoughts to myself.

sorry if i randomly shut my blog down for a couple of days, i dont really know why i did it. i suppose i felt like i really didn't have much to show or to write about on here. but then it feels as if im compleatly leaving this place, where i've sort of been for 2 years. i guess i'll just leave it here and use it whenever i have something worth reading to write.

i biked around 14 or so kilometers today,
i ate scones,
went to my brothers place,
drank ice tea
and
now im home

xx

shelter

you might not be seeing me here for a while,
typed blogger.com onto the browser just a bit ago,
and felt like i really couldn't be fucked with this anymore.

off to alex's to make some food.

/s

cant we just laugh and joke around?

Woke up quite early and found some amazing cereal mom just bought. I dont even know, like its probably the best thing out there. Made my morning and stuff.

My brother alex is still asleep so im sitting on my couch still in my pjs.

Things I need to do today:

Try and do some of my homework.

Shower.

Meet wonderful Anne.

Drink some proper coffee.

Brush my hair.

Call dad.

Stop wasting my time.

Try to have a decent wednesday x

agia marina

Things I like nowadays:

Spending time with alex.
Listening to bon iver.
Taking pictures of rainbows.
Biting my nails.
Washing my face.
Collecting books with pictures of nice things in them.
Buying white clothes.
Listening to alex talk about politics and history.
Staring at his green eyes.
Color-coding my clothes on my clothes rack.
Chocolate milk.
Not craving cigarettes.
Holding my dad's other kid.
Thinking of my dad's lovely radio-like voice.
Thinking of my mom's caring face and laugh.
The way you smell with your perfect perfume.
Thinking how now that smell is mine.
White wine.

Things I dislike nowadays:

Mom's attitude towards me.
Feeling sad because I'm listening to bon iver.
Only being able to write when I'm a little sad.
This list.
Other people's blogs.
15 year olds with pictures of them smoking on instagram.
My mom's looks at me last night.
Crying.
Not being able to sleep.
Too little sleep.
School work which I haven't started.
How I still think about him at times.
Jeanjackets with jeans.
Eating unhealthy food and then feeling bad about it.
This stupid cold.
Red wine.
His "i-always-need-to-be-nice" attitude that makes him seem so fake.
The way mom didn't look at me in the eyes today.
People who are rude online.
Being a little bitch and not doing anything about it.
Being obnoxious.
Not reading enough books.

good night xx

pretty visitors

ah
why do i feel so sick

horrible headache
nauseous
my eyes hurt
 :(