well i dont wanna wake up in the morning but ive got to face the day

Got back from town a little while ago.
Had thai with my brothers and my mother and then coffee and cake at my brother's place.

It was all so wonderful. I love them all so unbelievably much.



I haven't studied, even if I have a trillion tests next week that I can't fail. I don't have the energy to study now, so I'm going to finish watching the first season of Game of thrones (klasndfkasd its so good) and then sleep.

Tomorrow = Math, Business and shit Ensys.

My back hurts.
I wish I got to visit mexico.
I need to wash my face.
Sometimes I want time to go by faster.
Sometimes I think time goes by way too fast.
I should stop thinking about you.
I can't play any more music on Spotify.
I need to learn swedish.
My mother is amazing.
I should dress better.

Good night x

flee-marketing

Set the alarm at 8. Didn't get up till 8.30. Grabbed a bag and headed into lund.

Flee-market in lund. It was slightly cold.

Listened to Kanye's Graduation (<3) and wondered what to do with this tee.

Cut the arms off and fell in love with it.

Found the perfect black shirt for 5 Swedish krowns.

And a lovely parrot shirt that I cannot wait to wear when it gets warmer.

This is how my day has looked so far. I'm a bit tired since I went to bed past 12 (late for me) and got up early to go to the flee-market.

My older brother's coming over in a bit and we're going to celebrate my mom's birthday. I always get happy when he comes over.


I keep watching that video of you. I can't help it.


I also have a lot of studying to do.

Have a lovely saturday xx

(Oh yes, by the way, Instagram came out for android a couple of days ago. I hate it but ironically I got an account. Follow me @suphix )

i wish i could hold on a little longer

I really really want to be with you
Why can't you be mine?
Why can't I stop thinking about you?

shit's gay

Wooops

So my updating is like horrible, but according to my stats you guys keep coming back.
I really do appreciate it and absolutely love that many of you check this even when my updating is this bad...

I have about 10 test or so, next week and the week after. I have 3 subjects I'm quite worried about, so I really have to study over the next week/weeks. I can't get 3s or 4s any longer... I just can't. I know I can do much better by simply opening up a book and studying a little everyday.

School has been quite okay. Specially when I get to see you. I wish I could hug you. But that would be totally weird.

I don't know what else to write and it's getting kind of late.

Good night, wherever you are x

life

ioashdflasd
super busy at the moment
ending school late
a lot of studying to do
sleeping early cause otherwise i cant cope


i'll see if i find some free time tomorrow <3

much much love to all of you

(Wooop woop, this is also my 100th post! Though i'd celebrate by telling you guys.......)

you've got blood on your hands and i know its mine i just need more time

"She sits on her bed, facing the big window in front of her. It's around 8 o'clock and the window is slightly open. A freezing breeze comes in through the little opening, sending a shiver down her spine as the cold wind touches her skin. She's been listening to that play-list she made shortly after it had ended between her and the boy.".... Now you're just somebody that I used to know...". She actually remembers how he was the first one to show her that same song, months ago, when he used to tell her he had never loved anyone the way he did.

Now it's all over, and she hasn't had a conversation with him for over 3 months. But it finally doesn't hurt every time she thinks about him. It finally feels slightly better.

She knows what the wants. She wants someone to talk to and laugh with. Someone who she will feel comfortable with, someone to rest her head on before falling asleep. Someone who has had similar experiences, but someone who will also inspire her with his own. Someone who will be there for her. Someone who can be there for a little longer. 

Her hands are freezing and her room is getting quite cold. But sitting here, letting the fresh and cold air come in is just too fantastic. The sun has just set but there's still some light that lets her see between the shadows. The clouds in the sky are surprisingly dark and some stars are starting to show.

Could he be the "someone" she wants in her life? He seems to want to talk to her. She has laughed with him. She feels rather comfortable with him and she could imagine herself resting her head on his chest. She doesn't know much about his life but he probably has a lot of stories to share with her. He could probably be there for her. But for how long?

Why can't I ever give time to things?- she asks herself. She hates time, and wishes her life didn't have to relay on it so often. There's always time in the way. Time to get over him. Hours to sleep. Hours to play video games. Time to get to know people. Time before and after a test. Time to study. Minutes to be late. Time to finish things she dislikes. Time to figure things out.

She should probably close the window now and stop being so silly".


I haven't done anything productive today either. Two days left of freedom.
Maybe I'll actually study tomorrow. I won't be very happy with myself if I come back to school dumber than when the holidays started. 

I really need a shower.

Have a lovely saturday night xxxxxx

have you always been there?

Last night from his window.
Cold and grey Sweden.
Dressing like it's summer inside.


I'm sitting in the living room. Me and mom are watching tv.
I've been sitting here since I came home from Malmö early this morning.

I regret it.
I can't find Sophies world.
I don't want anything to do with you.
I need someone.
I should stop being so loud.
I should study.
I say the same shit all the time.
It's getting tiring.

Have a lovely friday night

the seasons have changed

Wednesday night.
Did last night ever happen?

I'm on easter break right now. And I think I should be doing a lot of school work. Probably more than I think.

Anyways, instead I am going to watch Baraka (second time and with subtitles) because it is a fucking amazing film.

I hope your dog days are over, cause mine are starting to be.

ciao bella/bello x

speed of sound

So I actually noticed how weird the pictures I posted earlier on are. I'm sorry if you found them nasty/sickening, but I really can't get over how pretty they look. hehe.

Anyways, I feel a bit empty today. I don't really know how to explain it but it just feels like there's nothing I can do other than wait and let the feeling go away.

I'm a bit tired.
I'm listening to coldplay.
I'm worried about my mother.
I'm insecure.
I'm not sure whether I want you or not.
I don't want to be alone.
I did yoga today.
I miss my dad.
I wish he would help out.
I need some cigarettes.

adeu xx

devils work

I've been quite good lately. I guess that's why my updating has been so bad.
Although I have been sick, I've managed to enjoy being home and laying in bed feeling sorry for myself.
My cold is starting to go away.

Damn it, I usually can't write when I'm feeling just okay. I have to be either sad, very happy, angry, confused, disappointed.... but never just okay. Oh well.

I have a very sensitive nose, so I get nose bleeds very often. I took pictures of my sink this morning.
My mom now thinks I'm really weird, after seeing these pictures. "But mom, aren't they so beautiful?" "What  the hell Sofia? That's just really scary".

There's a new guy. And I have no idea of what to do.

/s