building obsession

Okay.
Aren't all of these so wonderful?

My tumblr is kind of like an online folder where I save my inspiration. Lately my inspiration has been purely based on buildings. Burning buildings, old buildings, new buildings, ugly buildings, beautiful buildings, destroyed buildings.... you get the point.

So goddamned stunning.


Wooooops, gotta go eat.
Bye lovelyyy x

there's things in my life i cant control

finally used my lovely cigarette case

light in moms room

Coffee was my companion this week

Pretty breakfast a couple of mornings ago

Awful nails

Spend some time with Alex and Viktor at Mc playing cards

And went to lovely Copenhagen this morning

This is what my days have looked like through stupid instagram. Sorry, my older brother is currently in NYC, with his camera. Hopefully I'll get to use it soon and you guys can love me again <3

Valborgs on monday
Lots of booze
Lots of people
Hopefully lots of fun
Lots of cigarettes
Lots of laughing
Lots of lovely people
Maybe you.


I should go to bed, its late.
Have a lovely sunday!

Ett fel närmare rätt

What an annoying week.
It has gone by rather fast, so I cant really complain.

Im writing with wet nail polish on my left hand
I'm probably getting it all over the keyboard.

I really want to make some coffee,
But I need a better sleep tonight,
unlike the sleepless nights this past week.

I love talking to you,
and looking into your lovely
honest eyes from time to time.

"Aurevoir!"- I say loudly. 
"Sorry, what?"- you come closer to me. 
"Aurevoir, bye in french". - I say once again.
"Ah, yes"- you smile. "See you later".

questions

How about
I actually make some sort of connection with you lovely readers?

I have been disabling comments in my posts as I  prefer not to hear what you have to say about my whining and obnoxious writing.

I shall give you some time to ask me questions anonymously and I will answer them in a couple of days. Just ask on my comment thing down thereeeeeee. Click anonymous, I don't need/want to know who you are.

Go ahead, don't be shy. Its super easy and I'll love to hear from you/tu/dig/vous/você

Off to study to fail my math test <333333

you can call me anything you want

I haven't been taking any pictures lately, so I have nothing of my own to share.

Here you have one of Arctic Monkeys best songs, along with a wonderfully strange music video. Alex Turner is one weird guy.

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday xxxxx

(I changed the URL of my tumblr, it's currently www.preciousrace.tumblr.com  )

Twenty-three past twelve

I love you so unbelievably much.
But sometimes the way you treat me makes me die a little inside.
I asked you nicely to help me out. But I didn't understand, so you became annoyed and treated me like shit.
There have been times where you only talk about yourself and I sit there wondering whether you will actually ask how I'm doing.
I want you to listen to me more often.
I want you to ask me how my day was, before I even get to ask you.
I need you to be more understanding.
I need your help.
I want your help.
I need you to never leave me.
I want you to understand how you can easily make me cry if you treat me badly.
Because you're one of those people who I will love forever, no matter what. And when you treat me like this,
I feel awful,
mentally and physically.
Please, Mom?

420

Good morning,

I was woken up by my mother early this morning.

I have a horrible headache and I feel very very lazy.

I'm home alone and I've made myself some lovely toast and drank cappuccino.

I smoked too much last night.

I didn't drink enough.

But I feel great.

I got to talk a lot to a lovely friend of mine.

And met some new people.

My head is in too much pain to be able to write anything coherent.

I'll try later tonight.



Have a lovely Saturday morning xx

För mycket yta, för många spel.

So I stole this book from a fridge (I know wtf) and I started reading it cause I couldn't be fucked to study.

"Ett annat sätt att vara ung" is absolutely fantastic.

I've been marking some stuff in the book, because I hate forgetting where I read things.
Oh yes, and I've been reading in Swedish. Aren't you proud of me?




I got up early this morning to study for a test I was going to take, but in the end I noticed that I was not ready at all to do it, so I stayed home instead.
My next class isn't till 15.00, so I'm gonna shower, read a little longer, study a little, eat brunch and then slowly make my way to school.

Have a lovely start to your weekend! xxx

little blonde girl

Today I was unable to study once again as my dad called me up and asked me to come to ikea with him.

I was in bed when he called around 5 or so. He said he'd call me soon when he was here with the car, so I fell asleep for 15 minutes or so.

You were in my dream. I think it's the 3rd or 4th in less than a week. I might go crazy if you're there tonight too.

Just right before I woke up from my dream, a little blonde girl came up to me and asked "Are you sad? Because if you are, my dad can buy you an ice-cream".

Ironically, dad bought me an ice-cream at ikea and I felt sad and cried in the car on the way back.

Im off to bed with my very badly painted red nails.

I hope you have good dreams x

lead and pencils

So today was lovely.
Started off tired and a bit grumpy.
But then I got to school and I got a little happier.

Had a couple of pointless lessons,
but enjoyed the company of others.
You were there too.

I think I keep dreaming about you,
or falling asleep to thoughts of you.
Because whenever I wake up,
you're part of
the first things that come to my mind.

I'm sitting in my kitchen,
drinking a Chocolate
cappuccino.
And biting on a little Kex Choklad.

A couple of hours ago,
I expected to eat kebab with my dad
and brother.
But ended up at a fancy restaurant
with a tasty dinner.

I stole a book today
as well.
From a fridge,
from my school.

Today has been a good day.
Staying up a little longer,
to study and hopefully,
not fail.

Love love xx

tutururtutururu

So lately I've been having  feeling like I can't listen to music at all. It just doesn't work out. Whenever I try, whatever I listen to makes me annoyed.

The only type of music that actually works is classical, so I've only been listening to that for the past week or so. It's also the only music I can listen to while studying. Lyrics and too many instruments really distract me.

If you have spotify, you can listen to my classical here:   tu tu turrurur tu tu turururur

I hope this "stage" of me not being able to listen to my favorite songs goes away. I can't cope much longer not being able to listen to my usual music

(note: this does not mean piano-only songs aren't marvelous and mind blowing)

much love to you all xxx

well i dont wanna wake up in the morning but ive got to face the day

Got back from town a little while ago.
Had thai with my brothers and my mother and then coffee and cake at my brother's place.

It was all so wonderful. I love them all so unbelievably much.



I haven't studied, even if I have a trillion tests next week that I can't fail. I don't have the energy to study now, so I'm going to finish watching the first season of Game of thrones (klasndfkasd its so good) and then sleep.

Tomorrow = Math, Business and shit Ensys.

My back hurts.
I wish I got to visit mexico.
I need to wash my face.
Sometimes I want time to go by faster.
Sometimes I think time goes by way too fast.
I should stop thinking about you.
I can't play any more music on Spotify.
I need to learn swedish.
My mother is amazing.
I should dress better.

Good night x

flee-marketing

Set the alarm at 8. Didn't get up till 8.30. Grabbed a bag and headed into lund.

Flee-market in lund. It was slightly cold.

Listened to Kanye's Graduation (<3) and wondered what to do with this tee.

Cut the arms off and fell in love with it.

Found the perfect black shirt for 5 Swedish krowns.

And a lovely parrot shirt that I cannot wait to wear when it gets warmer.

This is how my day has looked so far. I'm a bit tired since I went to bed past 12 (late for me) and got up early to go to the flee-market.

My older brother's coming over in a bit and we're going to celebrate my mom's birthday. I always get happy when he comes over.


I keep watching that video of you. I can't help it.


I also have a lot of studying to do.

Have a lovely saturday xx

(Oh yes, by the way, Instagram came out for android a couple of days ago. I hate it but ironically I got an account. Follow me @suphix )

i wish i could hold on a little longer

I really really want to be with you
Why can't you be mine?
Why can't I stop thinking about you?

shit's gay

Wooops

So my updating is like horrible, but according to my stats you guys keep coming back.
I really do appreciate it and absolutely love that many of you check this even when my updating is this bad...

I have about 10 test or so, next week and the week after. I have 3 subjects I'm quite worried about, so I really have to study over the next week/weeks. I can't get 3s or 4s any longer... I just can't. I know I can do much better by simply opening up a book and studying a little everyday.

School has been quite okay. Specially when I get to see you. I wish I could hug you. But that would be totally weird.

I don't know what else to write and it's getting kind of late.

Good night, wherever you are x

life

ioashdflasd
super busy at the moment
ending school late
a lot of studying to do
sleeping early cause otherwise i cant cope


i'll see if i find some free time tomorrow <3

much much love to all of you

(Wooop woop, this is also my 100th post! Though i'd celebrate by telling you guys.......)

you've got blood on your hands and i know its mine i just need more time

"She sits on her bed, facing the big window in front of her. It's around 8 o'clock and the window is slightly open. A freezing breeze comes in through the little opening, sending a shiver down her spine as the cold wind touches her skin. She's been listening to that play-list she made shortly after it had ended between her and the boy.".... Now you're just somebody that I used to know...". She actually remembers how he was the first one to show her that same song, months ago, when he used to tell her he had never loved anyone the way he did.

Now it's all over, and she hasn't had a conversation with him for over 3 months. But it finally doesn't hurt every time she thinks about him. It finally feels slightly better.

She knows what the wants. She wants someone to talk to and laugh with. Someone who she will feel comfortable with, someone to rest her head on before falling asleep. Someone who has had similar experiences, but someone who will also inspire her with his own. Someone who will be there for her. Someone who can be there for a little longer. 

Her hands are freezing and her room is getting quite cold. But sitting here, letting the fresh and cold air come in is just too fantastic. The sun has just set but there's still some light that lets her see between the shadows. The clouds in the sky are surprisingly dark and some stars are starting to show.

Could he be the "someone" she wants in her life? He seems to want to talk to her. She has laughed with him. She feels rather comfortable with him and she could imagine herself resting her head on his chest. She doesn't know much about his life but he probably has a lot of stories to share with her. He could probably be there for her. But for how long?

Why can't I ever give time to things?- she asks herself. She hates time, and wishes her life didn't have to relay on it so often. There's always time in the way. Time to get over him. Hours to sleep. Hours to play video games. Time to get to know people. Time before and after a test. Time to study. Minutes to be late. Time to finish things she dislikes. Time to figure things out.

She should probably close the window now and stop being so silly".


I haven't done anything productive today either. Two days left of freedom.
Maybe I'll actually study tomorrow. I won't be very happy with myself if I come back to school dumber than when the holidays started. 

I really need a shower.

Have a lovely saturday night xxxxxx

have you always been there?

Last night from his window.
Cold and grey Sweden.
Dressing like it's summer inside.


I'm sitting in the living room. Me and mom are watching tv.
I've been sitting here since I came home from Malmö early this morning.

I regret it.
I can't find Sophies world.
I don't want anything to do with you.
I need someone.
I should stop being so loud.
I should study.
I say the same shit all the time.
It's getting tiring.

Have a lovely friday night

the seasons have changed

Wednesday night.
Did last night ever happen?

I'm on easter break right now. And I think I should be doing a lot of school work. Probably more than I think.

Anyways, instead I am going to watch Baraka (second time and with subtitles) because it is a fucking amazing film.

I hope your dog days are over, cause mine are starting to be.

ciao bella/bello x

speed of sound

So I actually noticed how weird the pictures I posted earlier on are. I'm sorry if you found them nasty/sickening, but I really can't get over how pretty they look. hehe.

Anyways, I feel a bit empty today. I don't really know how to explain it but it just feels like there's nothing I can do other than wait and let the feeling go away.

I'm a bit tired.
I'm listening to coldplay.
I'm worried about my mother.
I'm insecure.
I'm not sure whether I want you or not.
I don't want to be alone.
I did yoga today.
I miss my dad.
I wish he would help out.
I need some cigarettes.

adeu xx

devils work

I've been quite good lately. I guess that's why my updating has been so bad.
Although I have been sick, I've managed to enjoy being home and laying in bed feeling sorry for myself.
My cold is starting to go away.

Damn it, I usually can't write when I'm feeling just okay. I have to be either sad, very happy, angry, confused, disappointed.... but never just okay. Oh well.

I have a very sensitive nose, so I get nose bleeds very often. I took pictures of my sink this morning.
My mom now thinks I'm really weird, after seeing these pictures. "But mom, aren't they so beautiful?" "What  the hell Sofia? That's just really scary".

There's a new guy. And I have no idea of what to do.

/s